Sorry in advance for the language.

Fuck American Idol.

More specifically, fuck Taylor Hicks and his blasphemous lies.

Today was pretty awesome.

Woke up...chilled...then Russ, Steve and I drove up to Gambrills and went Go-Karting for absolutly no reason whatsoever, lol. It was okay...the go-karts were kinda slow and yicky. But it was interesting.

Then we went to K-Mart...don't really know why. Then we drove to the Annapolis Mall so Russ could look at Zippos, lol. Good stuff.

And then...we went back to Russ's house, played Goldeneye (hell yeah) ate dinner...watched some hockey...great.

Best part though, at aboout 10:00pm, Steve, Russ, and I went down to the Hillsmere beach and just chatted. About life. It was probably the deepest conversation I've ever had with males. There are lots of girls that I can open up to...but virtually no guys. But i've found out that I now have two. We just talked about life...girlfriends...breakups...sex...college...love...and just...everything. I was really cool. It was nice and cool out, no one around, waves crashing against the shore...and just 3 friends chatting about deep stuff, lol. I mean I've talked to them about private stuff before, but we've really never opened up like we did tonight. Didn't know they had it in them, lol. Learned a lot of...um...interesting stuff about people, lol. Anyway...it was great.

Now i'm here. And i'm tired, so i'm going to retire.
Yes, I said "retire."
G'night.

Guess I'd better explain. People have been asking me about my last entry.

I woke up with severe chest pains eaaarrrllyyy friday morning. I can take a lot of pain, and I don't scare easily, but this was serious. I thought I was a gonner. lol.

Anyway, my mom was driving me to the emergency room...and I sent a text message to 2 people (in case one didn't get there) telling them to tell a certain person something...if...you know...I died.

Sounds rediculous...but I thought I was on the edge, lol. It was just that bad.

That's what I was referring to. It was really...sort of sad...but also sort of enlightening. I guess that person really does matter to me.

Anyway...turns out I didn't have a heart attack or anything, lol. They dunno what it was. But I got some intense painkillers, so I've been sleeping a lot, lol.

Night.

It's only when you're minutes from death (or you think you're minutes from death) that you display your true feelings...

Holy shit.

I don't know how that happened.

Eff. I still can't get my quizzes to post correctly. But this is what mine said:

Kindness is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend.  You want someone who will go through everything with you - the best moments and the worst, and all of those other moments in between.  You love to be able to say anything to your partner, and have them say anything to you.  You are able to be extremely close with your partner for that reason.

*Sigh*

Hm, what should I do today? I dunno. I gotta read some more. This book i'm reading is so kick-ass, it's not even funny. And i'll go to the gym. Maybe i'll call Andruczyk to see whats up. I dunno. Bye.